As I publish my 50th post I contemplate all that you know about me. I contemplate what I know about myself, what I have expressed to you, and how to continue expressing it. The whole point of this is to show myself that it is okay to be imperfect, it is okay to post a … Continue reading 50th Post
Still hanging in there? All you ex-athletes who are trying to become something greater. Those who are trying to achieve more after sport. Those essentially starting from the bottom of something totally and completely new. Recently I have realized that my peak age was not 16, or 18, or 22. I refuse to let the … Continue reading Identity Crisis? Part II
"First of all, people are much more unhappy than one thinks...and there is no such thing as a grown up. Everyone is destined to experience not only the exhilaration of life, but also its inevitable darkness: disillusionment, aging, illness, isolation, loss, meaninglessness, painful choices, and death." Have patience with everything unresolved and try to love … Continue reading Tragic but Realistic
I haven't been writing a whole lot lately. I have replaced writing with reading, praying, and hoping things begin to fall into place for my precisely laid out plan for my future. I needed to take some time to fix myself. A good friend told me, "Your mind is like an ankle sprain. Sometimes you … Continue reading What The Future Holds
From the moment I met you I knew it would be an impossible journey. A journey I was determined to finish even if all the time wasn't worth it. I regret that decision now, two years later and countless hours of me trying and you dragging me along in the dirt like an old toy … Continue reading An Open Letter to The guy I thought was Worth It
Some people are just not worth feeling sad over. The ones who run when you ask them to stay. The ones who are never truly there for you. The ones who, despite all the effort, can toss you away like you mean nothing. People show their true colors in desperate times. Times when their character comes … Continue reading Stand Up For Yourself
Sitting in my small square office, with a sliding glass door, three computer monitors, a picture of a window looking out onto the ocean (because I don't have a real window), a plain white shelf, a shit ton of recording equipment, and my rolly chair. I found myself staring at the ceiling, asking...how did this become … Continue reading How Did I Get Here?
I wouldn't say I'm a full-fledged feminist, but I do believe in girl power. We have it tough in the workplace, at a car dealership, at the mechanic, at the bar, and in society in general. We get treated differently than men. We're too nice, too bitchy, too emotional, and we have a low pain … Continue reading Ladies